{Something New}

I'm trying something new-ish, and it has me wrapped up in all sorts of feelings.

I worry too much.  If you haven't figured that one out yet.  :)

Ever since I could grasp a pen, I have loved to draw.  No exaggeration.  I was that child that constantly had marker or ink smeared across my entire self day in and day out.  Drawing was my thing.  Not that I produced any remarkable pieces of art to write home about.  Nor was I some genius child artist.  Nope.  I just like to draw, and color, preferably with just black ink.  Something about the flow of solid color calms my mind...

Until I share what I did.  Then I panic.  What if my friends think it's awful, but that can't tell me, because seriously, you don't tell people that.  Or what if they're sick of seeing what I draw and I'm one of "those people" that over share and think too highly of themselves.  What will people think of me???

But I love to draw.  And maybe, I do sorta like to hear the praise, wether it's lies or real, with demanding careers, and children, and a to-do list five times the size of earth, you don't get many compliments.

I decided to make use of this hobby and turn a drawing into a sellable coloring page... and then I panicked.  Because maybe truly I've crossed the line thinking way too much of my skills, and thinking some one would actually pay their hard earned money for anything I drew, while watching Star Trek re-runs, in my pajamas.  I'm not sure if I'm complicated, conflicted, confused, or just 100% normal.  But I'm pretty sure this whole new idea thing has been scarier than that 80 pound german shepherd that tried to eat my hand last month.

I truly wish God would write my true calling on am mountain side so I could stop worrying about all these silly things, but until then, I suppose this is just me.  Bundles of emotion, and feelings, and thoughts wrapped up into everything I make.  Maybe I'll never be comfortable, maybe I will.

And if you're still following through any of this mess of words here's my shop link to giggle and or purchase the sketch that's causing all this vomit of words:flower-coloring-page-1  If you do choose to humor me, I'd love to see your finished coloring page!  So make sure to link it in the comments!

~ Emily